"Letter to an Absentee Father" Written By Christy Weiss

Letter to an Absentee Father




Life never gives us more than it knows we can handle, but why was I forced to take this?
I may never have the life you already enjoy because of you.
I fought for the freedom I loved, but somehow gave it to you in a moment.
You were allowed to move on while I’m standing still.
We all make choices in this life, but some of us have no choice as to the options.

I hope your life is happier than it was then, and you are better for knowing me.
If it’s not, then you are the only one to blame.
I took responsibility and asked for nothing in return, but I shouldn’t have had to.
I see what has replaced me in your heart and mind, and I suppose I’m better off.
Still, one day, you will have to remember what I did so you could have that.

She still asks about you, and I have run out of answers to give.
How do you explain to someone that you never wanted them?
Perhaps one day she’ll understand as I have, that some people can’t love freely.
Until then, she has all the love I’m able to provide, and she drowns in it.
Still, how could you stay away from something so perfect and wonderful?

Here I stand with my heart hurting, knowing that you haven’t given her a second thought.
You have new responsibilities that obviously weren’t too much to handle.
Go on with what you have and be happy, but don’t come looking for sympathy later.
I took the responsibility of what you couldn’t, and I’m better for it.

Written By Christy Weiss on 08/08/12