Drunken delusions, can they be for real?
Am I truly feeling these painfull exstatic things I feel?
Desperation isnt in the loop, its not even a factor.
But fucking damnit all to hell, WTF would I do after?
But does it matter? Really? Is it even a subject?
If inhibitions were completely lost, who would give a damn next?
Those eyes, so damned blue, sad, deep and hypnotic..
Im... Im not sure what to do, GOD! Oh God, Please! What do I do next...?
I just need a response, just tell me, please, For Real!
Ive got to know how you, how your soul ,how your heart feels!
Ive felt a connection, a distinct and forever desperatly needed sympathetic link..
Ever since the moment I saw you, and my HEART, Oh my Heart! It began to Think...
But of all the luck,Just Mine, Its just the way it has to be,
You were never meant for someone like.. well.. like.. like me.
What was I thinking? Could I truly be so utterly blind?
Are you really what I was trying so hard NOT to find?
I think you are, and Im sorry, Im SO sorry my poor heart!
I have to cut you off, numb you, kill you, before it REALLY starts.
I just cant laugh and look into those eyes again,
without feeling the horrible, repeating and absolute pain
The pain of knowing, without a doubt in my mind
That YOU were the one my heart was meant to find.
Why did you wait so long my Love ? Oh, how my heart aches!
Oh how many decisions I now KNOW were sad and desperate mistakes!
But promises made to those that seem, now at least, to trust
Harden my heart, like the Tin Man, starting to flake and rust.
Show me you give a damn, PLEASE! Give me one small sign!
I know its hard, its hard for me, But thats how the planets have aligned
I want nothing more than for you to go away,
to leave me alone, let me be sad, dissuaded.
I know how to handle pain, rejection hurt and fear,
I dont know how to handle you being anywhere close, anywhere near.
And even as you look at me with no specia, lovingl thoughts in mind,
I will Love You FOREVER, somewhere, in the deep recesses of my mind.
Why now, damn you God! Why did you place him here now?
When Ive already pledged myself, ive given a sacred vow!
Oh to turn back the hands of time, to do it all like new again!
Id patiently wait for you, my love, my heart, my unknown perfect friend.
But does it matter? Really? Is it even a subject?
If inhibitions were completely lost, who would give a damn next?
Those eyes, so damned blue, sad, deep and hypnotic..
Im... Im not sure what to do, GOD! Oh God, Please! What do I do next...?
I just need a response, just tell me, please, For Real!
Ive got to know how you, how your soul ,how your heart feels!
Ive felt a connection, a distinct and forever desperatly needed sympathetic link..
Ever since the moment I saw you, and my HEART, Oh my Heart! It began to Think...
But of all the luck,Just Mine, Its just the way it has to be,
You were never meant for someone like.. well.. like.. like me.
What was I thinking? Could I truly be so utterly blind?
Are you really what I was trying so hard NOT to find?
I think you are, and Im sorry, Im SO sorry my poor heart!
I have to cut you off, numb you, kill you, before it REALLY starts.
I just cant laugh and look into those eyes again,
without feeling the horrible, repeating and absolute pain
The pain of knowing, without a doubt in my mind
That YOU were the one my heart was meant to find.
Why did you wait so long my Love ? Oh, how my heart aches!
Oh how many decisions I now KNOW were sad and desperate mistakes!
But promises made to those that seem, now at least, to trust
Harden my heart, like the Tin Man, starting to flake and rust.
Show me you give a damn, PLEASE! Give me one small sign!
I know its hard, its hard for me, But thats how the planets have aligned
I want nothing more than for you to go away,
to leave me alone, let me be sad, dissuaded.
I know how to handle pain, rejection hurt and fear,
I dont know how to handle you being anywhere close, anywhere near.
And even as you look at me with no specia, lovingl thoughts in mind,
I will Love You FOREVER, somewhere, in the deep recesses of my mind.
Why now, damn you God! Why did you place him here now?
When Ive already pledged myself, ive given a sacred vow!
Oh to turn back the hands of time, to do it all like new again!
Id patiently wait for you, my love, my heart, my unknown perfect friend.
Written by Kriztyna Bradshaw
Posted on 07/15/12
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